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Mysteries of the universe

A little genius goes a long way


Eye-Dealz
self
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Love more, argue less. 
Be direct whenever possible.  
Know when to quit and when to give a little.
Try to get a clear picture of exactly what you want. 
Uphold a standard, and don't lower yourself. 

Woman-
     -I'm thinking a smart, buxom blond with a good sense of humor and no "daddy issues."
     -Age, hair color and body type aren't as important as inner beauty, creativity, sensitivity, intelligence, open-mindedness, and compassion, but there have to be chemistry & communication!
     -Spirituality is important, so she should be interested in pursuing this as a subject.
We should be at a comparable place in our lives, and complimentary to each other.

~Believe (You hopeless romantic) that she is out there somewhere and desires much the same as you! 


Job-
     ~ Business solutions, etc.
     -Anything fun and interesting, where I have some creative control, and flexibility in my schedule.  
     -Should be room for growth or expansion from the beginning, and at lend itself to stability, security and long-term goals.   
     -Fame & fortune are less desirable in themselves than principles, satisfaction, dependability, and general moral character.  
     -Goods & Services with a company I can believe in, count on, and feel I am a valued part.
     -My initials can stand for "Excellent Customer Service!"   I rather like a leadership role, but I am happy to shadow and assist with interesting work, so long as I get to learn and apply knowledge, and build on experience as needed.    
     -I am particularly interested in Life-Coaching, Teaching, or perhaps Travel & Hospitality related jobs;
The possiblity of owning & operating a Restaurant, store, or nightclub holds some appeal.
-Though some certification or training is required, Therapy and instruction may take many forms (as with the aforementioned Beauty!) Massage, Yoga, Cooking, Gardening, or Counseling are all healthy practices.
-Design, innovation, problem-solving, trouble-shooting, PR, Brainstorming in a Think-Tank, or participating in a creative project with friends or comrades in a business venture, artistic, musical, film, or related project would be grand- the issues with and of this of course Lucre & Organizational strategy

Personal-
     (~Right now I really need MY HIGHER SELF!)
     -Read, write- research, study.  Relax, meditate, play the occasional game.  Challenge self, and overcome obstacles.  Balance, harmonize, integrate-  create, simplify, edify, streamline- Manifest goals, clarify choices, strive for betterment of conditions with regard to habits, style, health, education & understanding. 
     -Continually strive, aspire and appeal as needed, aim to attain and achieve these Higher Self ambitions!

Residence-
     -Peaceful, quiet, private, relatively inexpensive, safe & secure- but with easy access and connectivity to city/town, nature & cyberspace.  
     -Said place should have the amenities of kitchen, bathroom, washer/dryer, parking space, and a view.  


O, Lord! Look at me, how all these things are interwoven!
Give aid and succor as needed, however most appropriate.
I will return you thanks and praise.  Amen.

Squirting God-Sauce all over the Earth, Your body, and out into Space
Thaddeus
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God "says" He speaks with the undeniable resolve of scientific analysis pursued from the farthest knowable bounds of Our uncharted space. He is a diviner of drivers, who writhes through the wriggling motions of lowest form. He whirls though the vortex of wind with a falling cicada-wing leaf. His patience is rapture as in moments it follows fixation along with the otherwise accidental internment. Installing in natural leavings a limpid reaction which cleaves to the fore-fallen foliage of fresh, effervescent and sparkling dew. That, warms to the glance and cools through the same breeze in such rays as befit the glinting streams. The lashes of one eye, lidless, unblinking- staring with feeling which rotates and aligns, alternately benefical and officially stern on the lightly-glimpsed glances. Tracing a groove in the ground with a singular-finger, invisibly, as a gasp from His shadow is heard in the rustling above and in daring swoop through the clutches of a bower there.

Steel but fluid and flexible, almost a man-plant, but just barely abstracted from artificial constructs resembling sentience to animate extra-dimensional forms, is He.

...and HOW?

quill prick venom
zombie jesus
[info]acesifda
7up-
ohm.
SMAL-
VVVVV.   
SMALL=
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Vision
& Voice,
I NU it!
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HWWWWWY.   
VVVVVI.
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1=a=0
9=2=0
0'=0"
Eliminating Confusion, Sire!  )

                                           Usui-Karuna-Shamballa Reiki?  
Yoga/Tantra,                                
Volt-Watts
Vault, Mt.
Sorcery,
Witchcraft,
Satanism or
Christianity!

"Regarding Crowley"
self
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Happy New Year ! ! !
Saturnine & Mercurial

Do what thou wilt shall
be the whole of the law.
magickal alphabits & other such & such  )

What would unify and strengthen that Immortal Spirit of the Divine, dwelling within each and every one of us, as love eternal?

Sophia,
Alchymia,
Mnemosyne...

Love is the Law,
Love under Will.

Frater X-136
Arizen, EPB


*Intentionally left incomplete at present.

Love letter to an unknown, one in all
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Hymn to ME in Thee
buddha -crowley
[info]acesifda
Do what thou wilt shall
be the whole of the law.

Brethren,

_
__
___
____
Death
Befalls
All Who
Question

God's qualities revealed! Awe!  )
_______________
_______________

Love is the Law,
Love under will.

Big Guns look small
self
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Put your toys away!

Beloved, Psyche and Sofia, Alchymia, Forgotten Goddess, and daughter of the House of Figs,

O, Thou who art I... Namaste, Abishad, Goohoosa! Micma! Zorge! Comeselahe! Adonay! Juno! Jeheshua! OM......

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.

...........................................---------------------- b o o m ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~===================>>Love letter of Apology & (s)explaination )

I feel for you, compassionately. I would confess myself privately, but no more public scandal.

So, that's what I think of Gods- though the spirit runs through technology, Good Luck with that!

Love is the law, love under will.

Agaperos,
Arizen-Ra

Remote Handfasting Telesmata and More!
self
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Nobody replied to my last post, so I can only assume that no one saw it, understood it, or found that it warranted any forms of critique or testimonial.

So perfect was my post, that even being solicitous of praise and admiration, the rabble was too much in awe.

Speaking of poles, not the mentally-vacillating kind, or the big flip-flop switcheroo we are going to see in 2012 when North becomes South, the twin-vaults exchanging places, replacing each other as the Planet reverts to an inverted posture in it's great elliptical arc as it swings around the Sun and once again turns clockwise, counter to what we are accustomed for millennia, through the lost count of centuries along with the recurring themes of generations- It simply flips around and starts spinning the opposite direction.

So, why did we try to blow up the Moon?

I visited Portland, Oregon- and got engaged! (No other souvenirs, T-shirts or Buttons or reversible visors- just A solid engagement and some free brochures, and loving memories.) Okay! Enough Sap! ;P

The wedding will be held on 10/10/2010... Very auspicious. So our traditional Pagan Handfasting of a year-and-a-day began on 10/9/2009... Numerologists, have a field day with that.. A picnic, even! I <3 Prime numbers!

Currently, we are brainstorming in our cozy little think-tank... A small private ceremony in Portland, followed by a Friends & Family reception back East, from whence we both Hail. (We are both expat-imports!)

Curiously enough, Noting planetary alignment is never enough- any Astrologer worth hir salt will observe Planetary interactions on multiple planes. Fully functional logic-circuitry, the psycho-social aspect, Current Events, and small-scale occurrences on a local platform.

Noteworthy happenings include Blowing up the Moon, and Crowley's Birthday. I WILL NOT FORGET THIS!

All joking aside, if I were already in Portland with my honey- I would have been at the H.P.Lovecraft festival, and the ESOZONE convention in the flesh- as well as being there to witness the Portland Fashion Week phenomenon, being present for all this, and helping to support my belovéd fiancé in our burgeoning time of this fresh new engagement... (tricky phrasing; too many word-plays.)

Here's a small selection of events
I have been missing while mired here in this
Concretized Masonic Swamp known as DC:
(discuss: French architecture,
and Euro-grades beyond 33')

...ready? go!

http://www.belovedfestival.com/
http://www.burningman.com/
http://esozone.com/
http://www.hplfilmfestival.com/


Formally, I need a few things in place in order to ship out there on DECEMBER 1st, this year:
1. Paperwork for living with Bethany where she is now.
2. Someone willing to provide my sweet Kitty-cat with a home, temporarily, until March or May when we can get our own place there.
3. All my stuff here has to be sorted, packed and stored away for a time- until Spring when we have our own place and it can be shipped to that new home.
4. Just enough money to survive while I find a job in Portland.

That is all, for now. ~93

Just BE (news update)
self
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I got up this morning, late as usual- but tomorrow is yet another day! I wake, stretch my limbs, take a few deep breaths, and begin to plan my day. I feel like I am organizing my thoughts to be more efficient and clear with others.

I was very focussed on my goals and work today. The sad part is that other people are not used to keeping pace with me. I still managed to visit the SSA, get gas, buy groceries, mail a package and a letter, take my vitamins, eat something, input some job data that was due, make numerous phone calls to my parents, employers, fiancé, old places of employment, and a gov't agency or two for good measure.

Will genius become mastermind?
Will potential manifest in all-actuality?

Will long-suppressed dreams and visions become,
through a series of Deja-Vu experiences in the waking world,
precipitous in verity of good fortune?

The possible is estimable by tacit observation of empirical fact,
and proven by the preliminary governance of predictable outcomes.

I am trying to figure out about my Cat and my Car, whether I can get a Loan, where I can come up with extra money to pay rent through Dec. 1-

That's basically what I need over the next month.

sum ran dumb
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1:06 PM 10/4/2009

and the number of hours in a day, and how many jelly beans are in that jar, and how much does it weigh, and what does it all

mean, and why couldn't we have had a gum-ball machine like everyone else, and HOLY GOD WHAT IS THAT CLOWN DOING ... Oh, wait

he's okay.... Now, a little imagination is fine, but let's not get carried away. The truth is that there are only so many

hours in a day, we can't always guess how many jelly beans are in a jar, it doesn't matter how much it weighs or costs or

whether there are gum-balls instead....

Casting the seed, like a clove or a nut or a bulb or even a pine-cone- into that great and terrifying abyss, that gulf, that

chasm, that edge of the world, the nothing, the void-place of the spirit, the land of no-thing perhaps....

Oh, all of this is a seed-form, a catalyst- plant me in rich soil and sprinkle me with sweet honey scented rose water,

annoint me with musk, myrrh, sandalwood, oils of saffron and thy magicks, particularly- lemon balm, a bit of making up,

sipping, sterile doctoring, breaking waters! Ah, from a high place, soaring- a halo glowing, beaming smiling reaching out

towards you- to lend a helping hand, a friend in need- Love is the law love under will

Visiting
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Dear Portland,

I will be there in two days!

I look forward to seeing you,

and meeting new friends!

This vacation is long-overdue.

So, is this reunion (@enlightened77)

So, roll out the welcome-wagon

and a nice warm reception!

Blessed Be ~93

~Eric

Matter at hand
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Bark of the Midnight Sun
self
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Make like a bird...

  • 14:03 I favorited a YouTube video -- STU MITCHELL ACID bit.ly/yJ8wf #
  • 14:14 I favorited a YouTube video -- CIRCLE WIDENS WEIRD UNDERSTANDING bit.ly/dJGSF #
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Bark of the Midnight Sun
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Make like a bird...

  • 07:27 It seems as if you are in really good shape today as long as y... More for Scorpio bit.ly/14DAKq #
  • 13:04 freaking out a little. supposed to supply pay stubs to gov't agency which I do not have. Bureaucracy=red tape, long lines, uncaring people #
  • 13:06 let's play 'over-under' ~underworked, underpaid, overtaxed, under53X3d, underrated, undergraduate, underachiever, overwrought, overlord, #@! #
  • 13:07 Simplify, simplify, simplify! S T R E A M L I N E - X - I S T A N C E #
  • 13:08 unravel thread of commonality for me - M8. Medicate, meditate, mediate... Mi mi mi mi.... You see where this is going? ;p #
  • 13:09 The cat does not like the great outdoors. The cats paw is in my face. the cat is on my keyboard. the cat is hungry. the cat needs litter. #
  • 13:11 Commonality, correspondence, thought- LAW? What's on the other side of this WALL I keep trying to bash myself against? I Need A New MANTRA #
  • 13:13 TRAPPED IN A GLASS BOX! Exterior Clowns laugh at the asphyxiating claustrophobic mime. Walls shrink wrap him like a gelatinous cube. hahaha #
  • 13:16 Death is peace, the crown of all, release from bondage, the clarion call, the siren's wail, the whirling flail, the mashing gears~ 93/93//93 #
  • 13:18 Follow the bouncing ball- the hand is quicker than the eye- "the slow blade penetrates the shield- the shield wall is down!" Legionnaires'~ #
  • 13:20 Difficult. I view this past and future simultaneously crossing one another, however slowly revolving about, weaving in and out, time means~ #
  • 13:36 I favorited a YouTube video -- Cyanide and Happiness shorts compendium bit.ly/TJUT3 #
  • 13:37 I favorited a YouTube video -- Metallica - Cyanide - Very High Quality audio bit.ly/4zn1bb #
  • 20:09 Told both my parents off today, for some reason. Having to choose for myself and live with those decisions. Shrugging off parents, even tho #
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Bark of the Midnight Sun
self
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Make like a bird...


  • 09:51 I favorited a YouTube video -- Hexentanz - Mark of the Witch bit.ly/bqMih #

Let's get the flock out of here!
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S&G
self
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alchemical or cabalistic role playing, or creative viz. or guided imagery or something. ;p


I approach the giant golden door and trace my finger all along its surface. there appear to be runes etched deeply into its

gleaming surface. The sun is clearly shining in full strength upon it, and my own reflection is there- the inscriptions

glow...

Just like the night silver door of the moon... gleaming, cool, reflecting, and facing forever the golden door as an infinite

mirror of the soul-person... perhaps under a single star, passing between cooling and warming, and becoming one, then

noticing the silver-gold body becomes like a stone in the center, beneath the star- an obelisk beneath the central, figure,

as it has the horned disk of the lunar crescent and the round solar sigil, it also has the signature of the name, the

figures of the pentacle and eye, as well... there is an occlusion above, or conjunction-opposition, and the black stone

become anti-material in itself- the glow from inscriptions opening it from within, and the figure is called into it's

center... (okay...) that's fun. Maybe I will go back to the golden door, or approach the stone, or the wooden, or travel

to another place from the center, which in light becomes more granite, the figure at day is crowned and seated- the fountain

and garden surround, and more...

Bark of the Midnight Sun
self
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Make like a bird...

  • 00:14 I favorited a YouTube video -- Orange Goblin - Scorpionica bit.ly/QTybr #
  • 00:20 I favorited a YouTube video -- Secret History of the Freemasons (Part 1 of 9) bit.ly/4jYATm #
  • 20:21 I favorited a YouTube video -- Alanis Morissette - StraitJacket NEW SONG! bit.ly/LYCfO #
  • 20:24 TW*TTER! C*MWH*RZZZ.... NEGATORY. #
  • 20:29 I favorited a YouTube video -- Romble - Antagonist (Tetsuo) MV bit.ly/18dKHF #
  • 20:51 I favorited a YouTube video -- "Apologize" One Republic Music Video bit.ly/NBst1 #
  • 21:27 coming & going. par excellence, as usual. Deep thoughts, a random jumble that vaguely and loosely makes some kind of sense... okay I'm out. #
  • 21:27 @spawnkie so nice of you ! :) Enjoy your meal and feel better soon!! :) #
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Today's main event
self
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Some F.B. poop, in a tangled, jumbled, orange-orangutan-original porridge and wedding-wet spot, sweet scientific foible of rudimentary axiom prudent strudel toaster tarts...

Without any further ado...

*BLAH*

(EARLIER TODAY)

Anger management. self-help. failing of bureaucracy. departmental compartmentalization. zero cross-training. not my job. critical mass. zero-point. tao. polarity. oxygen mask. bulletproof. wash & wear. watch & wait. Bloody lurks. Arrgh-hue... fusia, peuce. Rheumatism. Aardvarks. Stun guns, vale of tears... cracking eggs, making bacon- solar angel... land meeting the water... BE-attitudes... 93-million

Flechette, spittoon, boils. gashes. crashing. cigar, burning cinders, ashes in the wake, all that remains... crap. tv. crap. wake of devastation. anxiety. angst. garbage. stench of decay, putrefaction. oil down dessicated limbs of tinder, sweltering heat, welter weight, banishment, congealing puss-in-boots, chrysalis corp. SE, SW. WAYS, weight, mass, density, M/E convergence, conversion... UH OH. F!@#. H&S. block

name rank order file, serial number. blank goes pop!

secret shit. the eagle flies backwards at midnight. poo-poo parader. hoo-ha, hem-haw. road block. ditches. rocks. quarks, quasars, pulsars. key-gate. inexorable. com-pulse-shun-airy- symbol-hyper-bole, vale, valley, call, gall, wall, ALL, beckon, reckon, make mention, haste or hesitation, division, diversion, decision, alert, aversion, concert, convergence, concept, coercion, concede, confess, CON. tentative~~

nuts and knuckles, chink in armor, Chinese Dragon, Western Lion, Undersea urchins, sanguine stucco, fractions, formulaic equations, binary comp, trigrams, tetra- hex, pent-up frustration, lightning in a bottle, argyle socks, azure abode, bliss, D. un-named or mention. F. action, Re. Henry or Hank. Charles or Chuck. John or Jack. wiggle, jiggle, fig, thistle, wooden whistle... Bombs. Drinking. Dis-ease. Pro-blame

Err. re. tract. vulgar. plebe. commonality, distance+ perk. "Psycheros" closing. sealing. re. move, trace, memory. Self-as-prefix. Intentional suffering? Purpose. Purview, surfeit- brevity, Pardoner. Peace & Wisdom. Bright blessings. Sanity. Culpable, quantum leaps, year- star-system. Cluster. nuggets. hard/soft. Long & short of it. Fiction from fact. Friction, fission/fusion. lease on life. ye old gold coin.

ount. period. exigency. emerging or evolving trend. set in stone. culling from herd, thinning, grayer... trim, neatness counts. choler in the lines.... healthy sun. smiling moon. "to know me is to love me" - oath, vow, word- meaning. truce. V. Quality/quantity. Virtue/Value. S. P. BE-ware. Final forms. 5. Filial piety. re. calculation, re. cite- stop. 93/93//93

It Ain't No Thing...
self
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AND NOW ... !!!


we're here with the bear drinking a beer that's cool,
rubbing down the flank with a side of steel wool,
that we catch on fire, build it into a pyre,
toss a tire and a wrench and an iron,
then flinch when it all comes boomeranging back around,
sliding downhill, taking a nosedive, drinking the sauce,
it's hot, sausage it is not, do you like luck,
lukewarm and shuck the oysters at the shoals like an otter,
let's watch Welcome back Cotter, mr. mean machine,
green Jeans, Billy Jean, The King, The Duke,
I'm about to puke-
It's all this food and noisome mess covers the floor-
add gas and a match-
that's your face-
to the hoop,
in the pocket,
corner of the bar,
a seed in the yard,
mind expansion,
universal explosion,
no longer caring,
back to the huddle-
look at the puddle,
ah, exhaust fumes,
plumes of smoke from flaming debris,
heaps of wreckage doused with sewerage waste.

look at the bums,
warming their hands,
fanning the flames,
playing mind-games,
ah that's Olympic.

Zeus looks on,
past the point of regression,
confession in a booth,
pay a nickel and blow the whole herd,
you heard correctly,
Inspector Gadget and Gidget,
invisible twins,
making amends,
beginning again,
playing pretend,
dropping the act, facade, pretense and such...

It's much too much, girls skip rope double-dutch, walk a smile tomb oaken camel with a crutch, I came blood and oil from my metal rod and automatically maneuver in a dirty baker's dozen square-hole formation, to kick up the heels at the O.K. Corral with the golden calf and half-carafe of white-wine, cheese and bread with that would be fine, I will yet make you mind, all mine's line the yard, while mimes playing football are watched by the cattle-calling burlesque girls dancing merrily yet silently by the sidelines. Nobody realized how to defuse the underground portions that moles burrowed around, beneath the pounds until the hounds were literally dropped into the caverns.

I NEED speed to editorialize greed with the green grass seed in a cash cow feed, like mean type breed you can't begin to lead until you've followed every steed and captured one of fourteen mead drinking, quarter bouncing tight end-wide receiving and vehement actors guild anonymous rejects.

Pist-ol'-whip-or-will
self
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Angry fist. Break everything down to initials. You're abbreviating. Good! I'm glad someone's paying attention. Now, class- you know how to act. Normally, this is natural. Still, we care. Conducting electricity is the new gold standard. Nothing less than the best, and what else matters?

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